My 5 minutes of #TimetoTalk – Postnatal Depression
I hadn’t heard about this until I saw it all over twitter this morning. I am glad that people are finally talking about mental health and trying to break the stigma.
My personal short Story ;
I am a first time mum to J , I have suffered from PND since he was born. In the newborn days I use to get panic attacks which stopped me going out of the house. When I did go out I thought everyone was staring at me and judging me. Why was he crying? Why does she look so tired? etc.. I had to start by just walking around the block and built it up from there. I avoided bumping into anyone to avoid conversation
I had a few sessions of CBT therapy, this helped immensely, although I didn’t feel like it did. I started taking Anti depressants which helped but after a few months I ran out and stopped taking them. I went on a downward spiral, this meant I didn’t want to go out again. I eventually got the courage to go back to the doctors and have started taking Anti Depressants again. I can honestly say they are helping me . I still have bad days but I am definitely surviving better.
I also have a husband who suffers from Depression. He has for years, I would like to say I was an understanding person before, but I understand a lot more now.
I hate the fact that some people still don’t understand depression. Understand is the wrong word. Accept?? The amount of times I have heard “I don’t get it , what do you have to be depressed about” “you have a husband a house and a child”
People that think depression is a choice annoy me. I hate it when people say “I’m so depressed ” “that’s depressing”
Depression is when you don’t want to get out of bed for the day, not because you are tired but because you just want to lie stareing into space.
Depression makes you not want to play with your child, you would rather just sit and stare into space.
Depression makes you into someone you are not. Depression makes you think about just packing a bag and leaving.
Depression is like a big black cloud that hovers above you. Sometimes a bit of sun may shine out and you may have a good day. However just because you can smile occasionally and laugh and joke it doesn’t make you OK.
If you can take 5 minutes to talk to someone about Mental health you may be surprised what your convosation turns into. You may find that you are not the only one suffering, or you may make one persons day that little bit easier.